Footstool finished off their weekend at Adrene's church, Assembly of Christians and once again, God moved mightily and people were encouraged and hopefully compelled to respond accordingly to the messages portrayed in Runaway Bride.
But for me, it just got me. I teared, no, I simply cried. I felt the burden yet again, as I try to understand and try to stay focus on the ultimate goal in life.
After the performance, the pastor had one of the members to present a song as we reflect on the play. It was Hillsongs - So you would come.
As I sat and reflect on the play and the words of the song, I cried. My heart actually ached. Just thinking about it through and through now, I am helpless once again. I think I should be fair and be honest.
I long for the day my parents and my friends (secular, very dear and good friends) become Christians. As much as Footstool has been one of the channels to go out and reach out, in my personal and available time, I try as much to shed some of my perspective on the eternal life that we all can have. Honestly, sometimes, it gets really tiring but I know I hold a key amount of importance in their lives, the privilege of close proximity that I have that is such a waste to give up easily.
But every other performances, I see members of the family of the various footstoolers coming by to encourage them. Adrene's dad who pastors the church, Dorothy's various siblings who comes and fly back to catch Runaway Bride, Colin's dad who is a prominent figure in the Christian world. At least each of them has some roots to that effect. And well, I'm the one who was lost but now found.
Just at times, I wished I could see the sight of a close friend or a parent of mine coming to any of the performances. Well, I'm banking on a couple of close ones for GT and TTDI. As I look at my life, it just makes me think whether I should be spending my time building monuments for myself or my strength should be focus on what is true and real, the love of God.
The song just spoke and blew me away. I sat and tears were just rolling down my cheeks in darkness. I know God has His plans. Each gift and talent that he has given me is to simply to serve him and make an impact but the ultimate conversion comes from the holy spirit. I know that He is working, I do not doubt, but again, my faith is tested to trust and avail myself to Him. Again, I check my heart, asking Him to reallign my focus and will to His desire and plan for me.
I realized also that acting on stage, is extremely exhausting. I think the characters in Runaway Bride is reaching it's expected potency for me. I am just dead sometimes after each performance. I have to work a lot harder to fine tune certain theatrical skills because I just lack in certain areas. It's fine with me, I always like pushing myself anyway. Just at times, you get into that slump of despair.
I have been thinking about my role, as a witness of Christ in my surroundings. That I should keep the same passion and potency on stage as I must in real life. I'm starting to ask myself questions again.
I have great friends, who have an extreme worldly lifestyle, I mean, I came from there too if I really think about it. Not that I indulge in every activity that they do, but I had previously in my old life, shared the same sentiments about their outlook in life. Their lives sometimes seem so inviting because they are simply so accepting. However, I can't say the same for my church or some who are in the pracitce of the holy huddle (if you get my drift). I'm all game to bring them and rope them in, but somehow, I know it'll paint a horrible image and what more with the horrid stories and experiences they have heard about Christianity. I know, I once faced the same scenario. But God is so much bigger than that.
I spent time searching and looking and hoping for answer. But I think what I needed was God's assurance once again. And it did come, yesterday at AOC. He came, so that I could come.
Before the world began
You were on His mind
And every tear you cry
Is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come
Nothing you can do
Could make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done
Could make Him close the door
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come
Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word
The power of His blood
Everything was done
So you would come
'I am different because God makes all the difference' ~ rizumu
You were on His mind
And every tear you cry
Is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come
Nothing you can do
Could make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done
Could make Him close the door
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come
Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word
The power of His blood
Everything was done
So you would come
'I am different because God makes all the difference' ~ rizumu
Heya..it's been really encouraging seeing how God is using Footstool to bless you and draw you to Him. Keep up the good work, faith and passion k! =)